the blank slate of my mind

i've been thinking alot about the issue of




transparency.





how do you be completely
honest
_______with yourself?
_______with others?

honesty is easy
(when pertaining to facts
to events
to actions)

but honesty is
messy
when trying to measure emotion
or
create a picture of one's
mental landscape

my mind
does not move
in straight
lines

it zigs and
zags
putters along
and
then, suddenly_____________ zips


halts



and
sometimes
idles
(slowly processing thoughts at a very, very low rpm)

(often, it gets lost
and
weaves
a strange route
home)


how do i
honestly
tell you what i am thinking?

how do i convey those thoughts which have no expression?

how do i take a snapshot with words
when my mind is weaving a tapestry of thought?


my thoughts are not intensely complex
in fact,
it is their utter



simplicity




which is so hard to convey


mental images
not of the world of objects
but rather snapshots of concepts